Testimony Page

here is your new page! a place where you can write in and tell of the great things the Lord has done in your life. so many of you already have written in to say how christiangoth.com has blessed you, or how you thought you were the only one and the Lord led you here..... write in with a short testimony about anything the Lord has done in your life, how you met Him, whatever, and it will be posted here for the Lord to receive glory and to help your fellow christians. please keep it to approx. 200 words, ok?! on the subject line of your email write: testimony page (if you do not do this, it won't be posted because i will consider it a private email. thanks all.

My Family (the good one's) still show me love and support, but they let me know in little ways they don't approve of the "goth" thang. It's so good to know there are others like me out there. Unfortunately, like others I have read on here, I felt so rejected I turned to the Occult, Wicca to be exact and self mutilation. But God let me know through my husband and scripture that this was wrong and after about 8 months of the nonsense, I rededicated my life to the Lord, in my "Gothic" bedroom, and asked for forgiveness! Now I witness to those in the occult that they may fill their voids with JESUS! See it's hard, being a person that suffers from mental illness and self mutilation, to believe that someone like Jesus would want you on His side, BUT HE DOES. Just watch the video on this wonderful web site called "My Jesus". It will sober you up and make you cry, He helped those that had fallen in the dirt and were at their worst. NOT ONE OF US IS UNWORTHY OF HIS LOVE, we shouldn't be for what we did to Him, but we're so worthy in His eyes!!! NOW THAT IS A FORGIVING GOD!!! Whether you're a prep, a goth, a redneck, a freak, a punk, a hippie, a scene kid, a hardcore, a square, a liar, a hypocrite or a sinner, He still loves us all the same. THANK YOU LADY MICHAELA FOR THIS BEAUTIFUL WEB PAGE. It has saved lives, and for that I'm thankful and I know that it makes GOD SMILE!!! NEVER GIVE UP HOPE...because like my favorite character in a famous movie says..."IT CAN'T RAIN ALL THE TIME." With Love, Angelique

My favorite verses are: 1 Corinthians 6:19-20 "Do you not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you have received from God? You are not your own; you were bought at a price. Therefore honor God with your body."

When I was 14 I began cutting myself. I had been sexually abused and for some reason it helped. I had actually stopped the habit by the time I was 18 but ended up getting involved with an abusive man who repeatedly raped and abused me emotionally and physically as well. I began cutting again only this time it was more than just the surface skin. Ending up in the hospital 6 times.

I was raised in a Christian home and even went to a Christian school but chose to reject God throughout my teenage years. After I got away from this man I was a mess! I had no desire to live. Then one day my grandma invited me to go to a Christian women's meeting. The speaker was a former lounge singer and somehow God really spoke to my heart that day, finally breaking the walls that I had built up in my hardened heart. Although I was then saved my cutting had become a bad habit. My life still wasn't easy. I now suffer from PTSD because of the trauma. I am now 29 and in the past few years I have managed to not cut, because I've posted these verses around my house and journal and in my purse as a constant reminder for me that my body really is a temple of the Holy Spirit. Occasionally when things are really stressful in my life my mind still wants to cut but because of these verses and God's never-failing love and strength I carry on. Dori

Let me start off by giving praise to God!

I overcame self-injury in 1996, amongst being healed of many disorders, just shortly after turning my heart and life over to Jesus. I don't know if you are familiar with self-injury or not, but briefly it is self-inflicted violence such as punching, cutting, burning, hair pulling, skin picking, all done as a form of coping with overwhelming emotions or situations.

When I harmed myself, I began with hitting and punching at age 8 followed by ripping out my hair, and years later into my 20's progressed to where I cut my arms and legs.

On two separate occasions I burned myself while on medication and under psychiatric care. Amongst hundreds of scars from cutting, I have 2 large scars (4 to 5” long and 2” to 3” wide) from 3rd degree burns.

In 2001 I created a self-help website, End All The Pain! (endallthepain.com) as a way to offer hope and encouragement to those struggling with a variety of challenges in life.

I had my first book published; No More Pain! Breaking the Silence of Self-Injury, which I believe will bring hope and healing to so many!

In 2006, I formed Launching Point, an organization which is a self-injury support and resource center, which is the only of its kind on the east coast. (see links to all these on the Self Injury page on christiangoth.com)

I am a Goth I'm am Christian I'm proud to say that I was once lost in the binds of the real world.

I've be there, and done that from drugs to suicide attempts then a friend talked to me and let me listen to his cd Rackets & Drapes, can't remember which one. That day I asked God into my life, 5 years later here I am, co-ordained in the SBC and getting ready to go to seminary to be a reverend. I am goth and i am a christian and i am proud to be that in God world forever. I will always remember my past and look at it to use as a sermon to others to find Him.

Reverend Dan

co ordained SBC

Dear Web site Mistress,

You are a credit to Christianity. You are a "little anointed one".

I am a 38 year old mother of five and my 2nd child is a grace-filled "goth".

I will share this web site with her and I am sure you will have a daily blogger, reader, and prayer partner.

Bless you and all you do for HIM!

agape,

Elaine

I had accepted Jesus at age 11 (currently 14). I started getting depressed, began to SI (self injure), and struggled with E.D.s. When God failed to help me out of the hole I had dug myself, I lost faith in him. I took up Wicca for a while, but things didn't get any better. Then my mom, who is very strong in Christ, started being able to reach out to me without me completely rejecting her. I took Christ back into my life almost a year ago, but I couldn't seem to shake off being "gothic". I found this site and saw that the two things could happily coincide together. Through this site I have realized that I can use being "goth" to the Lord's advantage by telling other lost souls what I've been through and how He saved me and He can do the same for them. So, I would just like to thank you for making CG.
Thanks,
Jenn

A year ago I lost 2 of my best friends and my mom all to suicide within a 2 month period. I became so depressed I began to do drugs and cut myself. I was caught 3 months after my moms death at school with drugs. Even though I got caught I still felt that I couldn't give up those things to which I was addicted to. By the time i stopped just over 5 months ago i had done almost every illegal and legal drug known to man and was scarred all over my body. I had to also spend 30 days in jail for what i did. Through this website of seeing there are so many people like me and the love and support of my church, i continue to be free from all drugs and self-mutalation. Thank you so much for such a website.

Thank You, jimmy c.

* Greetings! First a little thank you for the great site. Truly a masterpiece, if I may say so. Then I would also like to say a big thank you for something that has changed my life forever, and something that would not have been possible, had your
site not existed. Let me tell you the story:
It began very simply. There was a ChristianGoth boy from Sweden, and a ChristianGoth girl from Finland. They were each looking through the ChristianGoth.com Directory at your site. The boy looked through the entire list (as it were then), but could not find a single friend from Sweden, or Norway, Denmark or Finland either, for that matter. But still, something compelled him to write his name to the list. That was how they found each other. After a few e-mails, and a couple of weeks chatting on MSN, they met
at a Christian Metal festival in Sweden. About a month later they were a couple. After that it took almost a third of a year untill they met again, and it was very hard being away from each other that long. But still, God had plans to bring them together. That very same summer, they realized that they had independently applied for the same Bible School in Sweden.
Coincidence? Not likely. Now we have been in the same class for almost a year now, and we recently got engaged. Some years in the future (when we can afford it) we hope to get married. "And they lived happily ever after", or so the story goes. But it all started with one innocent e-mail, (the e-mail address on the Directory Page on your site.) So if it had not existed, we may have never met. So thank you. We just thought we would let you know... Johannes and Emma
P.S. (update) - We are getting married August 4th 2007. : )

* I have been completely off Lexapro (anti-depressant) for a month! - j c

*I had 2 fathers leave me in my life. First, my biological father left me and my Mom When I was 8 Months old, then at age 13, my step-dad left after two years of Marriage to my mom. My sister was two when he left. I started to get into cutting, and such. Then I found Christiangoth.com year my step-dad left. I re-dedicated my Life to Jesus Christ a few months ago and I haven’t cut since! The Lord has set me free from cutting. And now I realize that He is my one and only Father, one that won’t leave me! ~Chris ~The Rose Phantom

*your site saved me from suicide and gave me religon. u showed me that at least God loves me and i am eternally gr8ful. ur site also showed my parents that being gothic doesn't mean that i am in a cult or gang and that 2 is very important in my family excepting who i am. my god bless u 4 ever more. - sarah

My Name is Sarah, and i first found your website through my boyfriend. I found this website to be completely inspirational and amazing. I wish that others could see the beauty in the Dark side of christianity. I am and always will be a christian goth...This website helped me explain to others that just because I dress a certain way doesn't mean that im evil..but quite the opposite. thankyou for giving me a new hope, and thankyou for lifting up the one and only true God. Blessings, Sarah. B.